Simply Me

My FB and IG mobile apps are history. In the two hours since, I've gone to check my phone twice to scroll, a little shocked, a little, "Oh, right," each time. "Now what?" actually crossed my lips with honest puffs of disconcerting air. 

Now what?

Resolutions: little pieces of life that one resolves to lead. There are 6 sprinklings of refinement this year that are begging for me to address. They all sit anxiously under an umbrella of incredulity, wincing at the thought of taking action. Waiting, longing for so long to dance in the rain, forgetting how to pull up their boots. 

Today I take a step forward. Out of the shelter of fear into the heaviness of a hope long forgotten, I wade in the waters of a tide obliterating the childish stone-wall castles I've built. There comes a time to put the buckets and shovels away, wipe away the sand from in between the toes, and go back home to square one. 

I'm terrified. My safe place is disarray, the bustling chaos of emptiness. The meaningless things around me pushing me to be more, do more, stay busy, stay loud, live devoid of richness and curiosity of what I am made of rather than what the things have made me. 

The theme I've chosen for 2017: simplicity. There is richness and fullness in the quiet spaces of simplicity. Simplicity is basic, one foundation to live on that is anything but basic. It is one earth to be grounded upon, with wide open spaces to truly be all of the things without all of the things. 

1) Lose the weight that's holding me back. Literal body weight. But no more diets, no more crazy workouts, no more musts-in-order-to-succeed. Looking at it from a viewpoint that was so satirically apt in an SNL skit, "Eat less, move more." That's it. Simple. 

2) Cash budget. Buy what we can afford. Grey area emergency credit card for things like flat tires or the roof gets blown away or the basement gets flooded. Fast food is never an emergency. Simple. 

3) Get to know God better. Pray, read 1+ pages of scripture a day, serve in my calling with minimal but spiritually guided prep. 20 minutes a week. Simple. 

4) Organize the house down to the spoon. Konmari is the way, the joy, the way for me. One half hour a day. Simple. 

5) Organize pictures from my computer, and long forgotten emails. 100 emails a day. 100 pictures a day. Should take 10 minutes. Simple. 

6) No more social media--for the most part. A post a month on IG to document my changing body. A blog post when I feel like writing. What a potentially magnificent gift of minutes I'm going to give to myself. #silent17. Simple. 

Simply 6. Simple reset. Simply me.

What are your simples? Or even not so simple but that your resolve will simply get what you are after?